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recently found out that during the talking stage my gf was sleeping w another guy (before moving onto me, however she gave the impression that we were exclusive and that she only slept w people she wanted to be in a relationship with) the things she was discussing w her friends back then were so crude too (comparing who kisses better, whose performance in bed was the best ; me being compared included, and found out eventually I was chosen to go steady cos of my background) ik hookup culture is pretty f'ed up to begin with, but is it wrong to be honest about your own actions instead of hiding it ? and why do girls think it's okay to treat men as objects and share bed stories w their closest friends, not knowing that doing so puts their partners in a bad light and makes them so vulnerable ever since I raised it up she said she's been trying to change, and that she admits she was not the best type of person due to the prev partners who treated her badly. yet every morning and night I wake up trembling and experiencing these intrusive thoughts over and over again immensely hurt and disappointed, at one point went back to my suicidal past because i couldn't believe someone who said they loved me so much actl thought of me so lowly from the beginning and said such things behind my back, i've already booked an appointment w the school counselor but if there's anyone out there in a similar situation, just know you're not alone , and would love to hear some practical suggestions