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Just wanted to breathe my thoughts out. I am a zellenial working 2 jobs (one full time and one freelance, but sometimes feels like 2 full time if i commit more hours on the freelance) to pay off debt and trying to save up for... I don't know what. All I know is that my parents always told me, if I work hard I will get results. I can live the singaporean dream of paying off debt, affording a BTO and having kids. But that dreams feel impossible. I'm almost 30, my partner's PR application got denied, I feel stuck yet nowhere to run. I paid off half my debt (25k) in 6 months and while I am very proud of my achievement, i feel empty inside. I feel like I'm just a cog in the machine and that I am nothing. I can't afford holdiays and I can't even bear to go JB because the few hundred dollars for a weekend trip can be used to pay off debt or to buy my grandma a few shifts off her cleaning lady job. I feel useless. I can't even provide a small sum for my grandma to fully retire. My parents boast about how they gave most of their salary to my grandparents and they can still afford to pay for their BTO, raise kids, go holiday last time. This simple life seems out of reach to me. I want to just pay off my debt and give up on life. I am so tired. The only thing keeping me going is that after 6 months, I can drop one job and give my grandma the allowance to let her enjoy her retirement. I hope I can survive till then.