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Many people would spit at me for having such a thought, and start rambling about how good we have it in SG, but I hate being Singaporean. Unfortunately for me, I wouldn't say I was part of the majority who benefited from Singapore's system, and largely believe people like me were set up for failure since day one due to the system's bias. I am a Singaporean, now overseas by choice. I moved to pursue a lot of things that Singapore couldn't provide me: Affordable housing before 35, a good career, and the ability to afford having a family. I managed to attain 2 of these not even 2 years moving overseas, but instead of being proud of my achievements, I feel a deep sadness within myself that I had to go overseas to get what I wanted, and Singapore didn't provide the basic Singaporean dream even though I worked hard and I have proven my value as a professional as well as a human being. I'm obviously not stupid or useless, since I managed to get a job overseas and even buy a place there. I'm also not single, nor DINK, I have a partner who is not a PR and we want to start a family. I don't understand why other countries can provide me these basics while my own country can't. I feel chased out of Singapore simply by being slightly different. And yet, I see so many new citizens and PRs getting privileges I can only dream of. I think it's quite unfair, I wish it wasn't this way. I can't even vent or rant about this situation to my friends in Singapore, most who are Singaporeans that benefited from the system because they fit the ideal Singaporean story, or SEA-sians who can use Singapore to geo-arbitrage their way to wealth back home. No one gets it. Even my own parents can't see the issue of unfairness and rising cost of living, but who am I kidding? They're the same hypocrites who are moving to Malaysia for retirement but still claim everything is fine. I feel so alone. I feel like I just moved overseas to attain what I want to prove I deserve it, but at the end of the day, it makes me feel empty. What I really want is all these things IN SINGAPORE. My only crime? Dating a non-Singaporean / PR. I choose love, and Singapore punished me for it.